"kalau mahu pindah baba urus"

So my dad asked me again whether I want to move or not.

Actually to be very honest, aku okay dah di sekolah tu. Friends & study is okay.
So I said "nda payahlah pindah. Angah okay juga"

But who knows..... aku mungkin pindah but ntah bila dan aku mungkin tidak pindah hehe

So just wait and see.

Its like, everyone WANT me to MOVE BACK

Im the one who choose this way so im not going to look back and back to my kepompong. Become the silent syasya back. Nope I dunwan

Its not because my old school is nda bagus or bida or what. I love and REALLY love my old school. Eventho, my new school even more better

But

My old school still win my heart.
I need to achieve something here (new school)
So that I hve solid reason to not move.

I love my new friends, the 4 Sarjana & the CDGs'.


So not move I think?

I hate u, tupai

I hate u for making me fallen in love with u
I hate u for giving me a fake hope
I hate u for being so nice
I hate u and I hate u.

How can I move on if u still there? Gimme a big smile & laugh with me?
Play and care of me?

And

In the same time you love & like someone who way more better than me.

So I hate u and I hate u.

#prayforgaza #prayforpalestine

Why them? They asked.
Because Allah will give them better after this;
And it is syurga.

Heartless people; the zionis. And why we should respect them? No. I never.

One day, one find day.... the Palestina while rise and fight back. And they will win.
With Allah's help and with the power of du'a. InshaaAllah. ........


#prayforgaza #prayforpalestine #freepalestine

moved on

What if I cant move on?
What if I moved on?
Yes. I moved on.
Its not easy like ABC or 123. I still miss my friends, my old school and everything.
But
How long I must stick with my past? I need to move on so I TRIED.
I searched for new friends and my long lost spirit. And I think I found em'

2014 is not my fav year and never will.
I lost my spirit once

Syasya moved on;
I try to love my new school eventhough it is hard because I spent half of my high school year at smkpl. So I think I should try spent another 1 and 5 months here........

           
        Allah please ease everything.
If, this is the best way for me please make it easy for me. Help me to face the trials and the people. Help me to become strong and brave and help me to be a good person.  Allah help me. Amin....

ramadhan

Its ramadhan. A month that full of bless and the pahala is berlipat ganda. I love ramadhan and always love it.
Ramadhan tahun ni lain sikit.
Without my family my friends my girls.
Iftar dekat dewan makan and everyone eat the same foods and the drinks is hm euw

I should feel bless bcos Allah still give me a chance to celebrate ramadhan kareem and buat pahala banyak2 right.


I always tell myself to think positive and avoid negative people. So that I can move on. And celebrate this ramadhan with a smile :)

random

I know I shouldn't call this holiday but who cares. Hahaha. Gonna spent my 3 days 2 night wisely. Bila lagi boleh balik rumah kan?


Yesterday was my school interaction day......
Stress depressed tension....
2 failed and yang fail tu subjek elektif what
Gila down gila mood........... macam mahu nangis. Yes just mid-term.... but tetap exam juga tu.
After raya ada exam lagi, bulan October ada lagi ya Allah.....
I need to face all of the trial. Fighting sya!


Ohyeah, semalam all in sudden my father asked me whether I want to move back to kk or not. Green light ka tu yellow light?
But dad like wanted me to move. The way he talked and the way he asked me. I know I know. Maybe dia tahu kot I'm having a hard time here without family and my friends. And I dont even know what should I replied him hahahahaha. Patutnya aku reply "yeah mahu pindah." Lol but I DONT TELL HIM

"Hm nantilah angah stay ja dulu" why aku jawab macam tu???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes I want to move but....... macam menyusahkan sekolah and even my parents..
I love my old school and the pengetua is daebak. My friends ugh I miss stay sampai petang di sekolah sama dorang
But
I want to prove to my parents, friends and teachers that I can stay alive here.
Hahahahaha

But we don't even what will happen in the future. Maybe I will move but we don't evwn know when :)

perks of studying in boarding school

so i think i found a few of advantages studying at boarding school hah

• you got enough time for your friends, homework maybe even for exercise because of no internet or laptop or wifi or handphone and others media electronic.
• you stay up all night for belajar and not for internet ( huh like me duh )
• you got time to recite the Quran and do the sunat prayers because at home our laziness is beyond crazy. 
• you do your own laundry because no one helps you. ohyah, you wash your clothes by using your hand.

wish me luck and i hope i can move on........ :) 

moving on

school is just around the corner,
should i feel excited, happy, sad or stress?
idk.

boarding school is sucks when you still can't move on.
how can I?
and why should I?
I created happy even worst memories with them for 3 years and 2 months...........
i just love them so much until i can't explain it. 

i tried,
yes i tried to move on by joining the form 4 lama activities and other school events so that i can move on.

i just hope, that i can move on and start to be the 'ceria' and the 'paling bising' in class,
i just hope, that i can find new bff there because school without bestfriend is  not  fun at all.
i just hope, that i can achieve my dream here,
idc
i just want to finish my high school and get out from this 'school'
yes call me whatever you want, idec.. i just want to get out from here and furthering my study at overseas or Malaysia's uni.

 

I find you so attractive

I come back.
I stop blogging since last year and now I start blogging..... again.

New school, new friends and everything is new.

Lets start...... I find someone soooooo attractive at my new school.... and aku nda tahu mahu buat apa lol

We talk, we chat. Macam kawan lah but idk im just that little girl.... small girl yang baru masuk sekolah baru.


Fyi, before this saya sekolah all girls and now I moved to sekolah campur.
Budaya baru, orang baru.
Then sekolah tu bukan di Sabah but di Labuan. Asrama life.......

Hmmmm so everything is new for me. Im a newbie, form 4 'baru' yang baru masuk sekolah tu.

Hmmmmmmm. I miss my old school. Seriously. ... I miss em' so much :(
Can you feel me??????

About that 'someone' I like him.
I know we call this puppy love but yeah I like him and I dont want him to know about this.
I have no attention to be her gf or what, I just like him. Thats all.....